Monday, February 8, 2010

Jehovah has Healed

Josiah: Jehovah has Healed (meaning in the original Hebrew)

Very, very fitting.

Things are going well here...better than I had thought they would be. I've never had a c-section, so recovery is an entirely new discovery. The first day or two at home was rough...getting around, doing anything with the kids took effort. My mom blessed us for a few days with her time, care of the kids, and better than "Merry Maids" cleaning abilities. Slowly but surely, my body is healing and things get easier with each day.

Healing is happening emotionally, too. I wasn't sure if I'd ever feel that way...actually not feel complete sadness and grief 24/7. Not cry a river every single night when Hubby would play with the kids and my thoughts would instantly turn to my little boy who should have been here...who should be nursing right now...who should be held by his big sister. Yes, the thoughts are always there. Josiah never leaves my mind. But despair, anger, bitterness, and depression have not taken over. I can get myself up in the morning and take care of the two beautiful gifts I have here on earth, and for that I am thankful.

And even though there are days I feel sadness and feel like the words just won't come out, I know God is moving, working, healing. It will take lots of time.

He has Healed, and He will continue.


Anonymous said...

wow-i love your attitude-it will take you far...that and your trust and confidence in the God who loves you!!! I think of you often even tho ive never met u. So glad you're doing ok. Love the meaning of his name. Beautiful! Lena Stoltzfus

Anonymous said...

i am so glad god has drawn near and i pray he continues to and that you feel him holding you through every season of grief, the ups & the downs. their will be an eb & flow and embrace each moment and work through it and trust in the lord. he is NOT far and aches with you.

Anonymous said...

Blessed be the physician, healer,Jehovah Gira(the provider)
Who will not abandon his people and will see us thru any diffcult time in our lives.Thank You Jesus!!!

Anonymous said...

i love you, Beth! you and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers constantly. my heart hurts with you. i am so relieved to hear that you are "okay". i wish there was something i could do...but know that you are so loved.

Emily Fries

The Jacobsen Family! said...

Still remembering you and your family in prayer, and so thankful He is providing a bit of comfort for you.

Cariluz and Ike said...

Praise God that you are going through this journey with such incredible grace and His gave your boy such a beautiful and appropriate name. Thinking of you often...

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing Beth. I check here often for updates and how to pray for you better. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

The lady of the house... said...

Beth, thank you for sharing how you are doing. I think of you so, so much and each day wonder how you are. So many people love you guys and are grateful that you would take the time and energy to tell us how you are.
I look forward to possibly seeing you at the end of this month.